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Sunday, November 01, 2009

Today was Halloween. I was invited to a party.

I needed to find a picture of me when i was little in a Halloween costume for a game we were playing at the party.

I pulled out the dusty file box that contained every material item that fabricated my past, in hopes of finding the perfect photograph.
before i knew it, i was taking a trip down memory lane, as i carefully pulled out each file folder, labeled "preschool" all the way to "10th grade", and flipped trough artwork, letters from relatives, report cards, and school projects.

It was when I got to my third grade folder that i broke down. In it i found two documents, letters, actually, addressed to me.

The first one was from my third grade teacher. "it has been a joy to have you in my class this year," it read. "Your artwork is incredible, and the stories that you write have been my favorite to read if any student i have ever had. You are such a hard worker, and your smile lights up your face. You are truly talented and i know you will be doing great things some day."

The second letter was from my dearest Father. In the first line it said." from the first time I held you, i knew that you were destined to do great things..." it then goes on to say," You bring such joy into my life. I hope you remember that its the little things, notes, crafts, giving hugs and kisses, and saying " i love you" that will always make me happy."

"what's happened to me?" I thought to myself, as i reflected on how it felt... being 8. I was quiet, but confident. shy, but strong.

My new favorite word: passion. It's what i had, and what i need now.

That little eight-year-old girl is part of who i am...

I've just let what other teachers, other friends say rule my heart.
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LOLLILOLLI5462 11/1/2009 4:06PM

    Sarafortune- i agree, that almost made me cry too! this was a good post.
SARAFORTUNE 11/1/2009 2:47PM

    Reading this, really hit home. It made me want to cry.

It was so much easier back then, just to be yourself. Before the judgments of others clouded your own.

This has to be one of my favorite blog entries ever.
LIKEXVINESSS 11/1/2009 9:47AM

    I know exactly how you feel. I'm in the same boat. One day my dad, stepmother, and I were talking about the things I used to do when I was younger, and how funny and bright I was. And then my dad said, "And then you somehow lost your Jessness." And I started crying because it's true. I don't know who or what I am anymore, and that was something I had always known as a child. When he said that, I felt like someone I loved had died. That girl I used to be was gone. (That sounds SO emo ahaha)

We're going to find ourselves and regain that passion.

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