If you have seen my current status, you might be wondering why I have bedazzled it with capitals and glitzed it up with angry exclamation points. Well, the fact is that I simply don't draw the line enough with family members. I love my family dearly, but I think it hurts more when they let you down than when a friend does, all because we are related to them biologically and we have a more-than-complicated attachment to them. My relationship with my mother cannot even be summed up as 'love-hate.' She is my best friend most days, my worse enemy other days, my advice columnist, my psychiatrist, my army sargeant, my wing-girl...and that's just in one day. But tonight, my mom let me down. She was going to take my brother and I on a shopping trip. We had been planning it all week. It was just going to be the three of us going out, which is really rare, because I am always studying and my brother is never home. So I was really looking forward to it. I even decided to for-go my workout so I wasn't all sweaty and icky looking when we went to the mall. So I didn't workout, even though I had so much energy I could've powered my whole neighbourhood. I sat on my butt from noon on, anxiously awaiting this rare shopping trip before I spend my whole entire weekend trying to memorize a scene from a Shakespeare play. I wait and wait and wait....get a text at 4 o'clock from my brother that said he couldn't go because there was an issue with the landlord at the jamspace. Disappointing, but then it could just be my mom and I. So I wait and wait and wait some more....7 o'clock roles around and I'm like "Well, this is great, because the mall closes at 9." 8 o'clock and I still haven't heard from her. FINALLY, at 8:30, I had given up all remaining hope that I would be going on this planned excursion, and my mom texts me. "Honey, I went out for dinner with auntie. Be back soon." So I text back "Uh....shopping trip?" Her reply? "I didn't feel like going tonight. Bye!" Thanks mom....could've let me know this before I didn't workout. I hadn't eaten much today. In fact, I only ate about 800 calories at this point. So I ate and ate and ate until I couldn't eat anymore. I binged basically, but I binged on grapes, dried cranberries, apples, meatless hot dogs, and whole grain cereal. The apples were organic too...I highly recommend organic apples. They smell more like apples and they don't hurt to bite into them because they are so soft. Really quite good. Best be buying more of those. Anyway, so I was mad. Really mad. So I took a bath, listened to some rock songs on my iPod, took a nap (crashed, bah), watched an episode of Criminal Minds...it was a repeat, but oh well. So right now I am watching Sex and The City the movie, which is one of my favourites...and omg now I feel bad because all I do is complain. Wow. Alright. I have a hair appointment tomorrow. I am mostly aggravated because I am really tired and got blown off so many times by my dad and I just can't take it when people do it. You guys never let me down though! Thanks for giving me so much support. And feel free to tell me that I suck, because today that's how I feel and I would agree with you. Bah.
Lots of love, happyness and Beatles songs,
Trisha