today was an okay day.. not the greatest but not the worst either.
so my uncle came for dinner tonight, ughh there was so much good food in my house.
i had 2 pieces of pizza, some crackers and cheese, and a small piece of apple pie with light ice cream. overall, like a 900 calorie dinner. yikkkesssss. oh well at least i tracked it, and i only at 1800 calories today so i guess it's okay. but i didn't exercise at all..
i hate these days where after dinner you're full and knowing you ate lots and knowing that you didn't exercise... it just gets in my head and makes me wonder if this is possible and if it'll ever be successful. but, i can't think this way or itll never happen!! ahh. im just not in a good mood now.
ive been at 140 pounds (fluctuating both ways) for about 2 years now. it feels like i never see lasting results. i know that before i've never been this committed or dedicated, but i wanna see results so bad! so i'm stickign to it, though, and the past couple weeks especially have been amazing from the nutrition standpoint, especially when you compare it to what i would eat before sparkteens. but i need to work on the exercise. i usually had soccer every week but this week was off... i still need to exercise outside of soccer cuz soccer's only 2x a week with games on the weekends. so yeah. i really need to get motivated with that... i'm setting an easy goal of trying to run 10 miles over the course of the week after next week (soccer tryouts are next week every day)... and if i do, hmmm... what's a good reward? any suggestions? i'm rewarding myself with new jeans when i get to 130 and a new (tight) shirt and shoes when i'm at 118... we'll see. i would say that i will allow myself to get a new book or cd at borders, but my birthday is on the 23rd & i don't wanna buy myself something right before my birthday. hm. well, i better come up with something.
i'll ask my friend ryan to come running with me though so i go farther =)
sooo, all in all not such a great day. im kinda feeling down and not pumped up right now... i hate this!!! i feel so guilty after eating such a big dinner, when really, i only ate 1800 calories today! i think i'm feeling guilty becuase i know that i personally cannot lose weight eating 1800 calories a day with no exercise. so,, tomorrow morning, when i wake up, i'm going for a run =)
maybe i'll call ryan and see if he wants to come tomorrow. sounds like a plan.
thanks for listening =)
xx julianna